no pressure...um, yeah right!

I was told today - by someone I just met for the 2nd time - that e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e in my town knows about me (and this here blog). You know, the "weight loss success story"...I have been dubbed (by some) the town 'hero.'

Yikes!!

As flattered as I am by that, it also comes with a lot of pressure. To know that people are looking to me for advice and opinions. That they are coming to me for inspiration in their own weight loss battles. They are coming to this blog to get reports and updates on how I am maintaining after my weight loss. Looking at me and thinking "If she can do it - so can I!"

{Gulp!}

And after the summer of crazy busy laziness that I just allowed myself - I need to sort of hang my head in shame. My weight may not have fluctuated that much all summer (after yo-yo-ing back up to 144.2 last week, I am back down to 143.2 again today...just barely above my 5 pound maintaining window), but my motivation? My dedication to the ongoing, life-long process of keeping myself healthy? It appears to have flown right out the window.

And what kind of example is that?!

I know I am not responsible for the health and weight of my town - everybody needs to make their own decisions to get where they want to be - but to know that I am looked upon by so many people makes me want to kick things back into high gear. Not to lose more weight (I'm happy with where I am...other than my mid-section of course!), but to continue to be the example that people are expecting from me. To keep working hard to ensure I stay at this weight and not start gaining pounds back little by little.

So thanks for the head's-up...I had no idea that this blog was so wide-spread here in my little town. I will continue to work hard to deserve the respect and admiration. But can you do me a favour in return? Could you comment on here from time to time - to remind me that you are actually all out there reading this? So often it feels like I am keeping this blog more for myself (which is fine), but I would be inspired more from all of you if you would let me know you've stopped by.

Deal?